proverbally yours..

the world is full of chattering voices, in and outside our heads.. some wise and inspiring and others, banal or injurious. i am learning to tune out the vast majority, including my own, that no longer serve me. just filtering is a daily grind but it is getting noticeably freer of debris. even while i pen this, i realize the futility of wondering what took so long. i used to feel older not wiser, watch out for that one! but we are here now hopefully in relative sound mind and body to do the work we haven't done and to soldier on toward our best lives. we will never get it done no matter how hard we work or how long we live. this, of course, frees us up to forget the past, disregard the future, lose the stress and guilt of everything and just do our best and have fun.. how refreshing!! despite having been a student of therapy and self help for twenty years and while there have been crises averted and lessons learned, it doesn't much matter if life continues to be an uphill struggle. buddhist proverb #1 "when the student is ready, the teacher appears." my last and most important teacher came in the form of rotten health and this is my path forward. proverb #2 "if we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep walking." now that i can walk again, i'm hoping for enlightenment but failing that, wicked smart, gifted and super healthy will do.

as a simple student of new habits, the buddha and the blogosphere, i am actually beginning to feel much younger than my fifty years in the way that learning makes you feel, anticipatory, engaged and confident. proverb #3 "wherever you go, there you are." this may not seem like much at first glance but the security of knowing your in good hands, your own, is priceless! i am not staging any more dramas in this lifetime nor am i expecting a sudden mutiny or an early demise but just to be on the safe side.. proverb #4 "when the tree falls and the monkeys scatter," you don't have to take it personally. i do not claim to have mastered anything but the journey is definitely shaping up! i don't feel like i need as much baggage anymore, my goal is to fit it all in the overhead compartment. the more i have stored in my infinite wisdom, the less i need to show for it.

and just one more thing.. as aging is inevitable, the premature variety is not.. www.realage.com thanks to new food and good information, which is all forth coming, i am currently getting younger. although the outside has not caught up to the inside job that i am working on, later this year, i will be celebrating my 50th again. no fanfare necessary. hmm, on second thought.. maybe an annie leibowitz photo shoot, she needs work right? and if all else fails, i can always fall back on yet another proverb, "the older the ginger, the hotter the spice."